Thursday, February 14, 2008
i guess it's jus a valentine sickness for me..
that i dun haf a date..
it was a lie,
wad he said to me..
he told me his mum disapproved of us..
actually that was jus an excuse to cover himself..
for he fell for sumone else..
i cant seem to wan to go out,
for i dun wanna be sad,
when i see those happy couples holding hands..
i've to go see the doctor foe my cough,
headache and running nose..
a totally bad day to be sick..
haf to take mc for i din go to work today..
i hope i'll find the right one one day..
Saturday, February 02, 2008
now i'm supposed to be clearin my rm..
but i keep endin up lookin out of e window thinkin of him..
i cant stop thinkin abt him..
and ya..
it was a TOTALLY BAD DAY for me ytd..
for i quit my job and boss told me to quit wif immediate effect..
den not only that..
i had a messed up relationship..
my parents wun disapprove..
why does ur's disapprove??
i haf nv had a relationship for more then 2 mths..
i guess there's a curse on me..
so sadened..
but i cant do nth..
It totally hurts when it jus has to end like that..
i cant describe the pain..
havin to act brave so that sumone wun be sad over this incident,
finding it so hard to do..
i dunno wad to do..
i'm really tryin so hard not to cry,
but tears keep rolling down my eyes..
why does she disapprove?
we do we haf to part??
am i dat bad??
am i disliked that much??
i jus cant believe it..
it's over and i have to accept it..
for the fact that she's driving him to a corner to make him break wif me..
it hurts when 2 ppl in love cant be together..
when one decides to follow e parents agreement because he or she has no choice..
i thot that we could overcome the problem together thou..
but we're jus too young..
maybe..
3 yrs more..
when we're both 21 yrs old..
we can be together w/o anyone havin to agree..
we can be together freely..
we can enjoy ourselves..
for now..
i guess we'll jus haf to study hard,
concentrate..
but i'm sure that i'll be missing him no matter wad..
i..
cant stand not smsing him..
thou i say i'm not goin to contact him anymore..
it's so difficult to do.. maybe,
i'm jus a jinx..
none of my relationships has been more then a mth..
maybe i shld stay single forever..
a 1 mth or less curse..
cool..
and i've to accept the fact and live wif it..
i'll miss you..and i hope u'll be happy always..pls know that i'll be there for u..if u need me..i'm jus a call away no matter wad..even thou i say i'm not gonna bother u,know that i still will..for i still care..i still love u..i love too much for words to express..i love u more then the world..i dunno how life would be w/o u..
