Monday, April 28, 2008
i stayed over at Sher's..
went home to take quite an amount of things..
woke up after 12pm to continue wif my "hannah montana"
and guess wad..
my bro texted me to tell me a not so surprising news..
making a report that i didn't go home yeh?
doesn't bother me now..
i jus called the pm up..
and he told me that i didn't have to go down..
just spoke some things to me..
maybe.. ok.. i don't know whats happening..
Saturday, April 26, 2008
Surprisingly,
I feel a little hurt in my heart..
Like i was a lost child or something..
Lost of aim,
thinking that I'll have someone to go out with at last,
for i'd been rotting at home for the past few days,
feeling useless..
found a nice song that's playing on ch's friendster..
though it was in canto,
i went crazy over it..
such a sweet sad song..
After watching the MV,
i feel deeper in love with it..
Maybe it's because of ch..
still unable to forget..
still missing him..
neb teased me abt him..
i was planning for today..
a day to town after so so long..
rather than rotting in bishan or AMK,
i MISS TOWN..
even if i was only to walk ard town..
that contents me well enough..
having cramps, and my heart feels hard too..
felt as though a knife was stabbing through me..
tears weren't able to flow down because of the pain..
the intense hurting pain..
anyways.. it's been so so humaid this few days..
and air-con is loved.. not too cold air-con..
stupid global warming..
KJ didn't miss me i think..
*stones, thinking
and i guess it's not worth waiting for ch anymore..
for neb told me that he's a *****ter..
i don't know what that means,
but i've heard that word quite a number of times..
forgetting about him..
i believe that i'll be able too..
Aja aja.. fighting..
a feel about love..
what is true love..
guess that idea never will appear in my mind..
Friday, April 25, 2008
a boring day again..
waking up after noon..
preparing to rot at home..
i miss him.. i do.. i do..
but wad else can i do but miss him..
i'm not hurt missing you..
so dun worry..
i'm as strong as a bull..
yay..
watching drama's and shows..
meeting someone just to get away from home..
that's how boring life has been..
so boring that i'm blogging..
walking around with him,
just to past time..
felt a little awkward..
for there wasn't nothing much to talk about..
he was quite tired i guess..
poor thing..
i still cant understand how poly is..
for i'm just a private student..
i think i'm goin to do the cooking tonight..
but i'm still thinking of what to cook..
>< lets see..
steamed minced meat in tofu and egg..
fried kang kong..
lotus soup..
sliced french beans with egg..
ya.. i guess.. thats it.. ^^
Thursday, April 24, 2008
What if i'm starting to fall for someone like nv before?
I won't be able to wait for you anymore..
No matter how much i still wish to..
I don't think it might be possible
Unless I pull my heart away from this and try to forget..
If not, i think it's impossible..
I don't reallt know whether this is love..
No matter how many relationships i've had,
that does not mean that i'm experience or what..
for, there are times where i'll feel lost too..
like studying, the interest is suddenly running off..
How could i keep it there?
What would it take to do that?
Smiling whenever I receive a message from him.
Hoping that he'll call me more often..
Is that love?
Being too lost for too long,
I dun know anymore..
a loving caring word..
that made me smile..
for a long while..
is this considered 2 timing..
not having any bf's yet 2 timing?
Why are questions of the heart so hard to figure out?
if i were to choose between 2..
I DON't KNOW..
texting you that i wasn't able to slp last night..
hopin u'd reply when u didn't..
until just..
when i play e 3rd song on my blog..
singing it, suddenly reminded of you..
thats when you replied me..
'sry for late reply... Ytd i slept kinda early...'
jus this short msg made me feel very happy..
i wanna tell u how i feel..
but i dunno how to reply..
'it's ok' is all i can tell u..
a sudden kiss jus on msn..
makes me feel as thou i could fly..
LOVES ALL AROUND..
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
listening to my own music on my blog jus soothes me down..
but i dunno why i cant seem to be able to download it..
haha.. request of helpin out in love..
i cant even figure myself out, how can i help u..
alright..
actually i'm quite happy in life..
not remember anything..
trying not to bother about anything..
my hearts like a darkened hole..
hidden away from many many things that i dun wanna face up to..
i feel very touched when you msg me..
it's not excited..
haha..
because i was hoping that u'll reply..
i thot i missed out a msg..
but when i slide open my phone, there was nothing..
until..
i heard..
a ringtone..
from my phone..
opening it again..
just like in the drama..
i smiled to myself..
seeing that my msg is replied..
made me happy..
^^..
i dunno why this kinda feeling came to me,
but i feel glad..
my hearts not hard..
hee..
been awhile since i felt like this..
age doesn't matter..
thats wad i realise..
but anyways..
even if it's someone who's younger then i am,
i look too young rite?
haha..
therefore its ok..
as long as the person looks average and is caring and stuff..
and taller then me..
i'm glad..
but i still have the feeling that i'm cursed..
thats why my relationships cant last..
sobs for myself to hear..
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
Nicole Scherzinger - I'll Be Your Love
I'll be your love
I'll never make you feel, feel alone
If yesterday blindfolds your eyes
I'll bring you tomorrow
There's a time
You feel like you're lost
Feel the night will never end
Through the daybreak
It's hard to hold on
But there is tomorrow
Brings you to your senses
As the sun will make it's way
You'll make it there
To the place where reality and dreams
And love will be together
I'll keep the light from fading
If the clouds blind your way
And the wind sways your faith
I'll be your love, I'll be your light
I'll never make you feel, feel alone
If yesterday blindfolds your eyes
I'll bring you tomorrow
Let me see you smile
Don't you cry
Over the past
Some days might be gray
And dreary
Not easy to leave
To leave it behind
'Til the rain stops in silence
I'll be there to hold your heart
I'll be with you
'Til you find the reason for love
We take it for granted
We'll keep the time from fading
''cause the world is here to stay
Your hope is deeper than pain
I'll be your love, I'll be your light
I'll never make you feel, feel alone
If yesterday blindfolds your eyes
I'll bring you tomorrow
If you would believe
Believe in the world
A vision of love
And the strength inside your heart
You'll find a way
I'll be your love, I'll be your light
I'll never make you feel, feel alone
If yesterday blindfolds your eyes
I'll bring you tomorrow
I'll be your love, I'll be your light
I'll never make you feel, feel alone
things happened a mth ago..
rather..
many other things happened..
i nv thot of blog till now..
he's still askin me questions..
i try to be calm,
but it's really super irritating..
a text with jus my name written in it?
who's the one too deeply in love with who??
i replied u with a yea?
FOR I'M NOT EVEN BOTHERED..
yea.. thats it..
if this goes on,
we cant even be frds..
i hope that day will sorta come thou..
That may seem evil or mean..
but i cant take this anymore..
msging me only when you need me??
i don't need that..
i have my own life to live..
i'll give my love to someone else who's worthier..
much worthier..
i know that day would come..
maybe..
i hope..
trouble ponders over me..
but i know i'll be able the to overcome it..
other then u,
there're so many others who care..
no matter how lonely i feel,
they'll nv fail to fill up a part of it..
allowing it to be not so lonely anymore..
"pfff to the baka's who're hurting me..
and gan bei to those who really cares.."
MUACKS..
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