Friday, May 02, 2008
i just realise that love..
that's something that i can't be able to trust anymore..
telling me that u'll show me sincerity??
i don't see any sincerity at all..
everyone says one thing but means another..
i don't mean anything to anyone..
thats how hurt i feel..
maybe only to greggy, sher and vig..
i mean nothing to others..
people just want to know me for my looks..
what guys want from girls..
i'll never want to give it away..
for guys..
hated..
can't be trusted..
losing hope..
totally hurt hurt hurt..
hurt.. maybe, this was fate..
i was never meant to be in a relationship..
and maybe i can stay like this..
i don't know whats so so bad about me that people don't bother..
my attitude??
issit that bad?? do i make you hate me??
why do i feel as though my life was in a mess??
why do i feel hurt in my heart??
hurt i've never thought i would feel..
feeling out of everything..
out of hope even..
i feel so so darn useless..
i don't know what i'm suppose to do..
i don't know how to trust someone..
i fear many things..
far too many things..
hurt till my tears are hiding in my heart..
hurting me so much, bloating me up..
unable to cry it out..
it's not who can change me right??
it's whether i'm willing to change..
that how?? how am i suppose to change?
change to what then??
would someone please let me know..
feeling that maybe i should just lock myself up..
to pursue loneliness..
