Friday, May 23, 2008
time for a move out plan..
thou i cant think of one..
but there is a need to..
i know u ppl all care..
but i guess u all dun really know the situation..
u're all jus askin me to go back..
sayin that u cant choose ur family..
that's nothing more lyk home
and that i was jus in a fit of anger..
it wasn't anger that got into me..
i thought of this for a very long time..
but when it suddenly happened,
i agree i sorta lost myself..
i couldn't slp and ending up haven so much thoughts..
ppl always say i think too much..
do i??
i often wish for happy ending that nv will come..
for i'm a bad, evil and mean person..
and good things nv happen to bad ppl..
maybe i nv realised..
i nv knew anything abt myself from the start..
i always run away from the truth and myself..
from everything..
i know i often say i don't hate anyone..
i may dislike, but i don't know how to hate..
when u hurt me so deeply..
u're my kin..
i try to forget..
but it jus pops out of my head..
tellin me to get away..
its not that anyone's perfect..
it's jus that that was too hard to bear..
if that person was you..
how would u react??
i haf a stab of pain gushin thru my heart..
my life is suddenly so messed up..
i learnt from the past to keep smiling..
no matter how difficult it gets..
i'll jus haf to find a reason to smile and laugh..
but now..
i only haf frds..
wads family..
wads a real family suppose to be like?
i don't know anymore..
my heart's jus lost in the midst of the entire ocean..
